so according to my last entry, i was pretty heated and had some problems with friends. well i still do, i find out new things everyday.

since ever since i can remember, i've almost always had more guy friends than girls ,besides my sisters and their friends. they're grown and gone and so are their friends, leaving me with nothing but the guys i've grown up since i was born. so i'm used to it and i adapt easier to them and stuff.

well towards the end of my junior year (last year) i started to be good friends with a boy and hes still like my best friend and so i hung out with all of his boys and stuff which is also the guys in my class, so it was no suprise to them and stuff. so over the summer they were all i ever saw n kicked it with.

now since the incident in my last entry i felt like i've lost all of those guys! the girls are ok, but theres nothing better than smoking a blunt or drinkin a beer with all the guys, just chillin and stuff. i guess i messed up on my own, but i know that they dont see me as innocent teresa drinking a beer and smoking weed, they see me as slutg irl teresa who's goal is to get with the whole class. NOT TRUE!! .. and to believe that one of my own guy friends said that about me.

i was shocked to hear it, but i dunno. friends are hard people to trust.

lately i've just been really depressed .. and i dont know why. i guess its just people who i thought were my friends were talking about me. it changes my input in a lot of ways and how i see myself.

i guess it's true, the one thing in people that we hate is the things that we hate about ourselves. something like that..

Categories: boys [t], school [t], friends [t]

i don't want to sound like anyones mother but i do know just how you feel. your stick in a part of your life thats a cross over. everything is so much more petty and harsh in highschool. it really is a different world on the other side. the only advice i can offer is to hang in there, you will find out which are your true friends. a friend who turns on you was never a friend to begin with.
hang in there
» crochetmama on 2006-09-19 03:21:37

your welcome :D
i know what it's like to be there and it does suck, the good thing is everything passes in time... nothing sucks forever

» crochetmama on 2006-09-19 11:46:36

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